So I’ve been thinking about this all day and.. i don’t know. I don’t want my feels to get the best of me again.
I mean yeah, every time I see Yujiro my heart races and I get really nervous/excited whenever I’m around him. But isn’t it always like that whenever you first start to like someone? I feel like I have to keep reminding myself not to fall for him so easily. Because knowing me.. that tends to happen a lot and.. it just never seems to work out.
I really want to like him you know? I really want to like him & get to know him. And I want him to like me too.
I haven’t been single like this in such a long time. I guess, I just don’t remember how to take things slow? During middle school & high school it was all or nothing for me. If I liked someone then I had to REALLY like them & there was no in between. Like i’ve never just dated anyone before??
I’m trying not to push things so far.. but I feel like if i don’t.. I’ll miss my chance. But then again, I don’t want to be tied down and like AGH IM JUST SO CONFUSED???
I AM SOBBING SOOOOO DAMN HARD RIGHT NOW YOU GUYS. I HAVE BEEN WAITING ALL FUCKING DAY JUST TO BLOG ABOUT THIS aaHaHAHAHAhhhh~!~!~!
So Japanese class was whatever today. There weren’t any seats by me but babe still sat pretty close. But he was next to anime girl so UGH. I wasn’t expecting much interaction with him today ESPECIALLY when i saw him walk out with anime girl too omg /cries
So then I just decided to go to the cafeteria to get some coconut juice & was unexpectedly kidnapped by my friend Aquilas. We hung out last weekend & I told him about Yujiro too. We then decided to go to the library to study & on the way in BABE WAS THERE ALONE GOD BLESS. But I didn’t tell Aquilas that babe was there until we went upstairs. But fREAKING once I told him he was like “OMFG MARIEL. WE ARE GOING BACK DOWN THERE AND YOU ARE GOING TO TALK TO HIM”
BUT FUCK I WAS SOOO SCARED OMGOmgomgGMG I was literally going to piss my pantsssssss~!! So when we went downstairs we were making up stuff like “OH MY GOD THERE’S WIFI HERE!!” So then we sat by him at first & then my friend was like telling me to go sit in the seat next to him but I was lyke NOOOOOOO. Until he eventually took my laptop & backpack and literally dumped it in the chair next to Yujiro omfg
But Aquilas is such a good br0 tbfh! ahghahghhh ♥♥♥~!
Anyway, since Aquilas had class, Yujiro & I were left by ourselves SOBS. I had to take some time and grow some balls until I finally decided to talk to him. So like LOL I ended up just tapping him on the shoulder with my pencil & he looked at me and was like “OH!” & then I said something like “Hey~, I thought you had a class?” “Oh yeah, I do; but not until 2; … I thought you had a class!” & then I was just like “nope~! not until one!” SOBS so we had a good couple hours to kill omg
We talked about a lot of random things?? idk. We were also watching some music videos together & omg we like shared the same headphones and everything & he’d like lean in closer and UGUGhHgUgHHg YOU GUYSSSSS. MY HEART WAS POUNDING SO HARDDDDD ekfja
He’s so cute omfg he even brought a carton of that Japanese milk & opened the straw with his mouth & like idk????? just looking at him with the straw in his mouth was the cutestsss I even giggled omg sosbsbsbss
BUT YEAH. Babe & I talked a lot actually! Although sorry, I kinda want to keep it to myself for now LOLL. Anyway~! I FINALLY got babes real number LOL. Yeah, I totally fucking got it wrong when i wrote it in class that day HAHA. I was like “I texted you the other day but you never responded!” and he was like “oh you did? I don’t think I’ve ever got it” & then idk I just ended up getting his number after that??
hmmm what else.. OH! I SECURED HIM A SEAT NEXT/BY ME AT ALL TIMES LOL. We were talking about how he was always late & how he wants to sit next to “normal people” bc lol our whole class is anime geeks tbh (not that theres anything wrong with that” BUT ANYWAY I was just like “oh~ Well you can sit with us at the table!” “I know! But sometimes all the seats get full!” “Well.. then just pull up a chair & sit there anyway!” “Oh you’re right, I’ll do that next time~” hehehehehuhuehehe
ugh you guys sorry, this didn’t come out at all like how i wanted too. I just have too many feels and like i can’t explain them all????? But yes, I scored fuckin big time today~ h0llllaAA~~~!
WE ARE FINALLY CHINGUS!
I’ve been kind of busy lately ever since I started working @ H&M and like school has been getting more stressful and.. well l0l, babe.
So I haven’t really had anytime to blog anything lately especially since Infinite hasn’t been doing much lately besides their overseas stuff.
ANYWAY, due to that fact I’ve just been personal blogging a lot more so I’ve decided to go back onto my main blog for the time being~
Pretty much all i’ve been doing is work omg. I am soooo fucking tireddd. Okay well no, my feet just really hurt like i cant even move sobs.
But idk working at H&M is pretty fun tbh. Despite the major bitch work; my coworkers are sooo … wEIRD. LOL. idk??? but i love it haha the atmosphere is great and since im constantly moving around time goes by really fast. Not bad for my first job??
A lot of my coworkers are pretty cute too tbfh. There’s this guy named Matt, he’s cute & sweet. I didn’t have much for lunch so he bought me a slice of pizza (｡;ω;) . And then my friend David also bought me a green tea latte bc idk i can’t live without tea/coffee?????
I’ve met a lot of cool people recently and a lot of my old friends are asking me to hangout now bc I’ve been on Facebook HAHA. Little do they know that I’m only on FB for babe tbh.
SPEAKING OF BABE. OH GOD. YOU GUYS SHOULD JUST TOTALLY FOLLOW MY TWITTER HAHAH. BC ALL I TWEET ABOUT NOW IS BABE. But anyway, babe and I added each other on facebook the other day & turns out that he likes INFINITE aahahAHHAHhah LIKE OH MY GOD. PERFECT MAN TBH? EVEN MORE PERFECT NOW THAT HE LIKES INFINITE TBH? EVEN MORE PERFECT BC HIS FAV SONG IS FEEL SO BAD? LIKE BABE. W H Y.
like UGHHHHHH. HOW DO I EVEN DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I AM IN DEEP~ shit.